To be or not to be!?

I have been going back and forth about a decision that I really was having a hard time with. One day it was yes, a reserved yes, but a yes. Then the next day it would be no, no way, uh-uh, I want nothing to do with it! Yet, I really have been hanging in the balances. I was pretending it would just resolve on it's own and that I would just have no heart and say no, but when it came down to it I said yes. I was nominated to be PTO pres. last night and I have accepted that nomination. After our PTO meeting last night, I realized that SOMETHING needed to be done. There's no organization right now and everyone is really just running with their heads chopped off. Meaning we really don't have a clue what to do. I guess I just want to be the change in the world that I want. If I don't like something, but I don't try and change it, then I really have no room to complain. If I don't like something and I try to change it, then I have a say. I don't like a lot of the things we did last year and how we worked so inefficiently. It just didn't work out well. But I guess everything got done and the end product was great. We are all so busy and I am the only parent on the board with children that are in cole bounderies and I am the only parent that is a homemaker or head of operations as I like to call it. I am enjoying contributing to Cole and helping in anyway possible. I love to volunteer and to give back. I have learned over 10 years of being a parent that it doesn't take money for me to get paid. I get paid differently. Which reminds me, last night after family prayer (it's our tradition to give everyone a hug) I gave Joseph a hug and then I took his shoulders into my hands and I said, Joseph I need you in my life. Thank you so much for organizing your room, you really did a good job. He said, "Mom, the other day I did a happy cry." I said, "Why?" he said, "Because you said nice things to me." Payment in full! Why get paid with money when you can get paid with love! What a precious boy. I guess I'm just realizing what an impact I have on my kiddos. Anyway, I'm once again throwing myself into something that will get me outside of my box. I've never been Pres. of anything, but here we gooooooooooooooooooooooo!